And the last day. It has been a crazy few months since I've arrived. Having to have ear surgery didn't help (see blogging is not easy, I had ear surgery in April on top of all the fun). My head is still spinning from end of the year meetings. I think I have found my place in this world. However, I think also, there are still a few battles that I don't know how to fight, and I don't mean that as negatives.
I have my senior remind for the class of 2020, so that makes me feel like I've got my footing again. Britney, well, we are growing. So now it's time to pack the car up for summer work at home and at school. I'm hoping to get my last few days out next week with end of the year closeout so that I can enjoy some actual pool time. Master is done, schedules are ready to go in. I have lots of notes to make next year better and not have so many scheduling issues. One day at a time.
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it's been a blur, and there has been nothing but fog since April.
It's amazing how many ups and downs you can have in this profession. It's also amazing that as a person how many times exhaustion can take over and make you not such a great person. I can't make anyone understand the mental exhaustion. Then the adult exhaustion, but that's not for public complaint. The last month has been the hardest race I've ever had. Trying to get everything ready for graduation, and trail by fire is not how I like to do things. But being inducted as the senior counselor by fire, maybe I should have fought harder to stay with the freshman. Here's what I know, I know now that everyone calculates everything differently and trying to explain that difference has been exhausting. I also know that having new administration and trying to understand the process has not been easy, especially when they are not familiar with the process either. Let's just say I know how to calculate GPAs very well now. I also know how to change outfits four times in one day, and what it's like to sleep eighteen hours with three kids. Graduation, awards, senior walk though, senior luncheon, all in one day, it was overwhelming. I am proud of awards day though, each student was able to receive something, and not jus some made up aren't we proud of you award. I gave out over 100 Work Keys certificates and it was a lot of fun. Graduation practice did not go as well as I had hoped, but now I know that the kids check their INow a lot, and we've figured everything out. I only cried for about twenty minutes. I will tell you, I'm not one to advocate for myself, because I've never been that brave. Funny, me teaching kids to advocate and push for what they want, and I won't even take my own advice. I made mistakes this last week, mistakes I will learn from and have corrected. But, the expectations and the pressure, I don't think anyone realizes how important administrative support is to a counselor. That they are our sounding board when it gets hard, that they are the people that we need to stand behind us, even if we are wrong. I don't need an administrator to sit and question me in front of everyone if they don't know, because sometimes I don't know. I know I shouldn't post all of my failures, but sometimes, reading back through helps one to see the mistakes that they made as a person. I'm not perfect, I have never claimed to be, and sometimes blogging is my advocation for what I need. But for now, I'm trying to get myself ready for tomorrow. Heels for fourteen hours on Friday, and I"m still so very very tired. |
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